S: "my fren's fren just passed away two Mondays ago."

R: silent.

S: "it shaked my life coz.., she's only 1 year younger than me..."

R: *thinking hard S's age... ok. so her fren's fren is 29 or 30 this year.. still silent now..

S: "everything was so fast. i was thinking, at her last moment, her last breath, did she had any regrets w her?!"

R: silent. silent and just, silent.

coz i was thinking and thinking as she account to me the short story.

regrets.
regrets....

ok S's friend friend, should be 29 or 30 years old. You know what..? she just got married 5mths ago. and it was only August.., she started feeling unwell and went for a check up. like S said, everything happened so fast. she was diagnosed with pancreas cancer. by the time, it was alr the terminal stage. and 90% of her liver was already gone. she did chemo and everything. but it was too late and she passed away.

i keep thkn...

yea.. at her last breath, did she had any regrets w her? ):
did she say things like i should had done this, i should had done that when i had the tym..?
):

i keep thkn of the ppl arnd me. 1 mth plus ago, when A told me smthn, i started to thinking for the ppl arnd me. i keep reminding myself to cherish those that i have with me now..
today i realise.
i should not just think for the ppl arnd me.

what abt me, myself?
i keep telling myself, iyah, it's ok. i can do it on another day, when im bla bla bla.
when im reminded of the things that i should start considering, start thinking, start doing, i keep delaying, only. i put them at the back of my mind and keep telling myself later.

now im thinking.
what if ive no more later, like S's fren fren?
what if something happen to me later. and i can do nth but just scream silently because of all the things i wanted to do, but i nv did them, at all?

i picture those horrible moments.

NO. i dunwant any of that.