Dear H,

It's natural to feel this way :)
That's how human works anyway. We will never be contented.
Just when we thought we have got what we have been working for, we feel that we are losing ourselves and we aint sure if this is the path that what we really wanted.

I, too, envy people.
I envy people of our age that can buy labels or anything they want in this world,
but i have to worry about my school fees.
I envy people that have the courage and freedom to do the things they want to pursuit in their life,
but i have to think of my family circumstances.
I envy many many things as well.
Like how i always say,: "We are all humans, why do we have such different lives?"

Like you said. Just as we are here, envying others,
there are hundreds, thousands or even millions out there envying people like you and me.
We always compare with people that are better than us,
but we will not compare with people who are in a disadvantage state than us.
That's human. Our greed will never be fulfilled.

Just wanna tell you about your sense of insecurity..
I think the following quote is really really good. I just recieved it from a friend of mine a few days back.. and I want to share this with you :)

"Genuine confidence is to love and praise ourselves even in the worst
possible state, not for how we appear to others but for what we are in the
innermost of life."

:D like you said, all these feelings come and go swiftly, so i assume you are already fine by the time you read this. just remember you are not alone when you are feeling down. :)
BIG HUGGGGS!!!! :D