Monday, June 28, 2010

New Phase

7:10:00 PM / 0 comments

This coming July 1st.
It's my dear friend's 20th bday.. and a brand new start of another phase of my life.

Looking forward to it?
Honestly, I still feel lost.
Perhaps, it's my first career in life, I dont really know what to look out for, what to expect and what to do? Just.. lost.

Lol, kind of ironic.
The past few months- I attended so many, so many interviews that I felt so depressed at one point of a time. I wished a job would just drop from the stupid sky and tell me I'm employed!

As I witness one by one my friends around me get employed slowly (and cruely to me..) , I questioned myself about my abilities. Then, I would question about life. Why do other people get a job easily, but not me? (It's more of like, you lose your confidence with each failed interview..)

Along the way, people did offered me positions. Well, another question I keep asking myself too. "WHY DO PPL ARND ME KEEP OFFERING ME IRRELEVANT POSITIONS??!!!!"

During this period, there were people that made insensitve remarks like I shouldnt be so unrealistic. It's difficult to get the job that I want, why not just take up any job first. Even my mom, suggested that I should just take up any position first before I get the position I always wanted. (I know she is worried about the finance- something that I felt guilty too..) But still, I felt that what I am doing is correct. I tried to ignore (coz honestly, they do bother me..) the insensitive remarks around me and just DONT GIVE UP & MOVE ON. I felt that since it would be my first career, it should be something that I want to do and I would be happy doing. I have plans of furthering my studies again. So in my first career, I want to work in a relevant environment and maximise my experience and knowledge as much as I can. I dont understand why people dont understand this point and like to be a wet blanket.

Really, back then, I just look forward to getting a job that I really ever wanted and prove to them sticking with my own idea is not wrong. Besides, it became increasingly pressurizing each them you meet those concerned (but do not know how to verbally express their concern in a correct way..) relatives who like to ask" Eh you now not studying alr right? so now you do what? work ar? work as what?" etc etc.

Yea. So basically the past few months have been quite stressful for me. I never shared with anyone anything regarding this; I was just waiting for the day I'm officially employed and pour everything out here.

Though feeling lost, I am still grateful that they offered me this position. Also, I'm glad that I did not wavered while people were discouraging me!!!! ;) Now, I just need a few more days to organise my thoughts!

Actually not much days left! LOL! I'm starting work this coming freaking Thursday!!! I still did not realised it( I thought it was next Thursday....) until Dajie told me! I checked my diary infront of her and found out that I'm supposed to give tuition to my student this Thursday!

hais, Big head now! Anyone wants to give tuition @ Pasir Ris??????